Me and My day... (sebuah tag)

Balik dari bercuti... Hari-hari saya tiba-tiba jadi sangat sibuk tahap kelam kabut... kerja-kerja tertunda selama 5 hari (walaupun sebelum bercuti saya dah cuba selesaikan kerja-kerja hari esok punya... tapi... hmmmm, nasaiblah. dah namanya pun kerjakan... pendek kata, celik je mata... kerja, kerja, kerja...

Saya ditag lagi... dan lagi... dan lagi... ***3 kali perkataan 'lagi '- bermakna ada 3 tag kena selesaikan... tapi tak pe. kita buat satu-satu dululah.

Mr Hidney. Mahukan saya menceritakan tentang hari-hari saya bersama saya... errr... atau kata mudahnya, saya dan hari-hari saya...

Hari-hari saya... kita mulakan dengan hari ini....
Today... Kerja macam biasa...
Actually, I'm not bitching . Not much anyway... but I am feeling VERY good today .

During the past week, I did not do a great job of eating healthy and exercising (ye ke? - bukan ke baru je balik dari bercuti?). I could blame the bad weather, which makes me want to curl up on the couch and do nothing, but this is not a good excuse. Lacking on the walking this week b'coz of the rain . Looks like it's supposed to rain through Sunday. I am planning to eat a lot better and exercise alot more this week!!! Konon-konon larrr... . . Berat memang dah bertambah 2 kilo ni... dlm masa yg singkat sgt2... ***byk betul aku makan

One thing that made me smile today : . . .
Oh dear, I'm working with a bunch of people with full of stressed or "bermasalah negara" (esp. people wt marital life problem larr) . . Work life balance? What balance? What life? I'm currently "enjoying" 13-15 hour days at a city firm that has frozen my salary and thinks I should be grateful for my job in a depressed market. This means not blaming external factors - even work .

The point is that there is no good reason for jobs to be overly stressful! Yelah, everyone has stress of one sort or another. Stress is self-made. If you wring your hands about how stressful your life is, you will find your life stressful. If you just take the view that work is just something that we do, then it's a lot easier to take it in your stride. If you can't do that, change career or change job. I've done it and it's a lot easier than it seems before you take the plunge. Life is too short to waste on being unhappy..

Ehhhh... apa ke situ pulak saya bercerita ni...
Kita mulakan balik... saya dan hari-hari saya...
ISNIN. -
Selalunya hari isnin ni, agak boring sikitlah bagi saya. Bangun pagi dengan rasa sangat malas.. (Padahal memang sentiasa malas bangun pagi) memang selalu begitu. Pengaruh mood ahad masih belum hilang... apatah lagi memang cuti hanya pada hari ahad sahaja. rehat pun tak sempat hilangkan penat... - Tapi selalunya Isnin adalah hari paling sibuk. Sebabnya kerja2 yag dibuat pada hari sabtu (sebelum cuti) selalunya akan menjadi agak tertanguh-tangguh sebab memikirkan apa aktiviti nak buat pada hari ahad... so, mana-mana yg tertangguh tersebut terbawalah ke hari isnin... byk kerja nak buatlah pada hari ni...

Selasa.
Mood kerja sudah ada pada hari ni... disebabkan dorongan kerja yg bertimbun2 pada hari isnin... Rutinnya seperti biasa. Masuk Office. onkan I-mac, tengok list kerja yang dah tulis siap-siap dalam satu buku nota... Tgk2 kalau ada nota pesanan dari boss yg ditampalkan di komputer... kemudian kertas-kertas yg bersusun dalam bakul bertingkat, tengok mana-mana job yg perlu didesignkan segara... itu akan di dahulukan dulu (ikut dateline)...

Rabu, Khamis, Jumaat....
Sebenarnya langsung tak ada beza pada hari-hari ini. Kerja yg tak menentu sibuk... bila free, free sunguh-sungguh... tak tahu nak buat apa pastu mulalah bertenet.. Tapi kerja grafic memang tak menentu.. Tgh2 free tu tiba-tiba boss datang .. "Chime!! ni, saya nak awak designkan benda ni serta-merta... saya nak hari ni jugak siap".... hah!!! bertungkus lumuslah kamu dgn kerja kamu... then, kadang-kadang tak siap pun satu... dah masuk 3 kerja yg baru yg semuanya nak kena siap hari tu jugak... hahah... masa tu baru ko tahu, masa 24 jam tu memang tak cukuplah... tapi tak pe. saya seorang pekerja yg berdedikasi dan cekap.. dan pantas.***dan hensem**

Sabtu...
Macam biasa jugalah. Tapi selalunya Sabtu tak sesibuk mana. Sekadar siapkan kerja-kerja yg tak sempat disiapkan semalam... Sabtu boss tak ada.. jadi kerja pun tak banyak mana... Tapi walaupun tak byk mana, semangat kerj tu agak kurang sikit berbanding hari-hari lain... sebab asyik fikir 'esok cuti aku nak buat apa ek????...' disebabkan itu, selalulah kerja-kerja pada hari sabtu ni tak siap walaupun tak banyak mana... then, di bawalah ke hari Isnin dan membuatkan hari Isnin menjadi hari yg paling sibuk kembali....

Ahad...
Bangun pagi-pagi... sembahyang subuh. Pastu siap sembahyang, sibuklah tolong mak masak sarapan kat dapur... siap je masak, tolong mak basuh baju... sidai baju, lipat baju, bagi makan ayam... itik... siram pokok... kemas rumah, sapu sampah, lap cermin, basuh lantai, basuh dinding (basuh dinding?)... bla bla bla... yalle! yalle! yalle!!
hmmmmmmmmm, tapi semua senarai kerja tu selalunya berlaku dalam mimpi je. sebab selalunya lepas semayang subuh tu saya akan tidor semula... masa tidor tulah datang mimpi-mimpi buat kerja rumah tu.. heheheheh.... dan, seperti biasa... pukul doblas tghari barulah bangun. petang pergi dating... (see, saya dating seminggu sekali je tau)...
Tapi sejak akhir2 ni, ahad pun tak boleh bagun lambat sgt dah... sebabnya melayan anak saudara kembar tu... main 'Spot the different'... kat muka diorang... heheheheh.... Sampai sekarang masih tak dpt kenal pasti yg mana satu Hakimi dan mana satu Azhari.....

Ha, itulah kot, rentetan perjalanan hari-hari saya... sekian... tag berikutnya pada entri berikutnya...
mmmmmm... malas nak tag sape2. bukan sebab saya dah lupakan anda semua, tapi saya tahu semua orang pun tak suka jawab tag... Saya nak ikut ab geldof... Musnahkan industri tag... boikot! boikot! hahahaha... saya nak tag jugak sorang tu... CIKGU WEEN... heheheh *tak sengajalah cikgu*

Begitulah kisahh...

(PART 1)

As always.. whenever I returned from holiday or long weekend I have always feel a little bit depressed. Not only because of the mountain of pending work but also because if you have tasted something so good, the day to day live seemed worse than before...

My theory goes like this: - More fun, more misery - Little fun, little misery - No fun, no misery. Because how would know that it is a misery if you never taste what fun is.

I believe I was born as a fighter. Or at least, that is how I view my self. A fighter. I seldom accept things just the way they are and always try to fight my self through it. Either through influence (talking and convincing basically), fact and solid data or working my butt off if that's the only way to get what I want. And most of the time, you not always get what you want..

Similar thing have been happening again although it is now in different dimension .

It seemed that no matter how hard I try, no matter how much time I spent and no matter how robust the data I gathered, to some people - it was never enough. The demand is high and the load is overwhelming, although I managed and doing as best as I could, it still was not enough. It was frustrating and disheartening. And for a while I had difficulties in accepting the fact that ~ regardless all the effort, I was just not good enough...

I beat my self up for a week and try to see things in different angle. I came to a point that it is impossible to please everybody and not get my self caught in between. I feel like having lump in my throat trying to repress all the emotion I have been feeling and I know that this is bad for my self. I felt intellectually crippled and emotionally kidnapped.

I finally managed to find a person where I could speak without having to worry of being judged or flamed. I was fully aware that the person I spoke to most probably will not be able to do anything about it but at least she/he is there to listen and emphatize. Without emotion. And with high degree of confidentiality. Someone that I fully trust will not repeat what I said nor let it influence her/his own emotion. Which is exactly what I need. Another emotion is the last thing I need at the moment..

And I gladly feel better afterwards. At least I am now at the beginning of accepting the fact that things has changed. What happened in a book, happened in a book. Life sometimes work in it's own funny way where I do not always have control of what is happening no matter how hard I want to control or influence it. It just not it. Not now. Probably not ever again. All I need to (and the only thing I can) do is do my own share and do things within my own domain as best as I could. The rest is up to life. And no, I don't want to talk about this anymore. So don't ask me about what it is..

PART 2

Venue: Kampung Merang... Terengganu - : I love this place... Ok... Bukanlah disebabkan ini kampung tanah kelahiran saya... But is a quite village in Terengganu. Discover this village for yourself... get off the car, walk off the beach, leave the hotel lobby.... walk through the fields at sunrise.
..Leave behind the camera, the list of places to go, things to do and stuff to buy. Walk down a dirt path where fishermen nod and call out: 'Nok gi maneh?' Answer simply:'Jalan-jalan', 'Just walking'. Walk slowly, slowly enough to hear the wind in the bamboo, the wings of dragon fly, and the soft footfalls of grace...

...on my trip to Terengganu kali ni... I met a man, called William Vickery. He was a retired Private First Class from the US army. He lives in Hawaii and moves every 6 months between Hawaii, Bali and Terengganu.... I will never forget his wise words: "I travel between Heaven and Paradise..."

Part 3

Kalau tidak kerana "disuruh" Hairi, memang tak teringat langsung nak buat pijat/urut di Terengganu kali ni. Dari pergi berjalan ke sana ke sini... diselaputi habuk, baik ikut saya ikut Andrew, Fuad dan Hairi pergi massage di Spa dekat Aryani Beach Resort (milik Raja Bahrin)... katanya . Biasa larr, kita lebih sibuk mengangkut kamera ke hulu ke hilir, dari menyibukkan diri nak "manjakan diri".... haaahaaa .

I just realised that there is never a picture perfect vacation .... each and everyone in this world has their own view of the world thus their view of the perfect vacation is different... so someone's picture perfect vacation might be a nightmare to others. Haahaaa

Part 4...

Pelik betul dengan selera makan Andy... Entah... mungkin ketika ini kami semua adalah anak dagang di rantau orang... (kecuali saya - sebab terengganu adalah tanah kelahiran saya)... jadi, menu sarapan paginya adalah yang berikut....

Nasik Dagang...

Menu makan tengaharinya pula:

Juga nasi Dagang....

Makan petang:

Juga nasi dagang.....

dan...

malam juga... juadah yg sama... sampai saya yg memang sudah biasa-biasa dengan nasik dagang ni pun jadi teruja sama utk menikmatinya setiap masa... hadoiiiiiiiiiii...... (berat saya bertambah 2 kilo dlm 5 hari... Makkkkkkk!!!!!)...

hah, dan satu hari tu saya terbeli beberapa cucuk satar....

Dan semua pakat serbu satar tinggalkan nasik dagang masing-masing.... hampehhhh betulll...

part 5

Huzni, yelah gambar aku shoot tak cantik macam engkau punya. Aku tahulah kamera aku murah... engkau punya 3 ribu hengget... tak pe-tak pe.... nantilah aku dpt duit lebih sikit... aku beli camera 5000 hengget punya... nantilah... nantiiiiii.

Part 6...

Selamat Datang ke Terengganu....


Hari ni ponteng kerja... kaki kejang.. betis kejang, peha kejang... sakit urat, sakit sendi... sakit saraf....esok jenuhlah nak menjawab dgn bossssss... (mungkin kena bawak khepok lekor sikit kot buat rasuah... heheheh)...

Aha..kat sana hari tu, saya jumpa ni... ...
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"Opsssssssss!!!!" hehehehe... (tulisan pun dah tukar hijau ni)

Life is nothing if not challenging

Some struggle from the very beginning till the very end - grappling and wrestling with troubles and trials few of us ever experience.

And some seem to have it easy. Finances, romance, career, family, fun; everything seems to fall into place for them. Most of us are somewhere in between these two extremes.

We struggle from time to time with difficulties. We bear up under our share of suffering. And we partake in our share of happiness as well.

But have you ever wondered - even when life is at its best - if this is all there is?
Certainly, when we compare our lot to many in the world, we can feel as though life is good. But, still, many of us hear a small voice inside - asking if life offers nothing more than transitory happiness .

Don't we spend our lives trying to ignore the fact that life for each of us is going to end - and that we are helpless in the face of this certain fate? Isn't this why so many of us fill our calendars with activities and vacations and diversions - just to avoid having to face our own mortality?


Manusia akan berselisih faham kerana banyak perkara - berebut harta, berebut kawasan, berebut kuasa. Apabila berselisih faham, tidak semuanya berakhir dengan semua pihak bersependapat. Biasanya yang berlaku ialah mesti ada satu pihak yang betul atau menang. Biasanya dicapai dengan cara berperang.

....dan manusia berperang dengan bermacam-macam cara. Adakalanya dengan cara bertarung secara fizikal seperti bertumbuk dan bergaduh. Adakalanya dengan menggunakan bantuan medium lain seperti senjata api dan kereta kebal. Ada manusia juga berperang dalam bermacam-macam cara. Adakalanya secara psikologi seperti sekatan ekonomi atau sekatan makanan . Dan boleh juga melompat macam katak kalau suka....

Hmmm... tapi kita orang muda (yang sedang-sedang) tidak perlu untuk bergaduh untuk perkara-perkara yang kecil seperti ini ~ berbanding menyakitkan tangan memukul bola, saya lebih suka menendang bola. Tetapi untuk mengajak orang-orang yang bertangan besar dan suka memukul bola dengan kuat ini untuk bermain bola, saya tidak fikir ramai yang berminat ....


Oh ya... sebelum terlupa... Mulai esok... (lusa sebenarnya) ...Please accept my apology for not updating any story & visiting others, although I have to say, this time, I have a very good excuse lah.

I wanted to travel somewhere... with 2-3 buddies... and all night in the bus... (dah lama benorr tak naik bas... rasa teruja pulak) - Mungkin di sekitar 4, 5 hari... ke beberapa tempat pilihan... huhu... teruja. (lama dah tak bercuti)..

Dan sebelum itu saya selesaikan satu hutang tag yg diberi kepada saya... diberi oleh adik yang cantik manis Ryna Rayhana...

Sape lah pencipta asal tag ni... saya tak pasti apa motifnya... kita tengok ya...

1. Anda dikehendaki mengambil 3 pic di bahagian muka..
2. Pastikan dicrop..
3. Setiap 1 pic hanya boleh menampakkan 1 @ 2 anggota sahaja..
4. Huraikan sedikit tentang pic itu..
5. Tag sape jer asal lebih 5 org..

Motif????????....
tapi takpelah... sebagai menghargai Dek Ryna inilah dia jawapannya:


Mata saya... nak xplain apa ek... cuma tengoklah ada tahi lalat kat kelopak mata bawah belah kanan... orang kata, kalau ada tahi lalat kat mata ni, jenis org kuat tidoo... errrrr... yelah agaknya.


Saya agak kurang berkenan pada hidung yg besar ni... Kalau boleh saya nak hidung yg kecik mcm shah Rukh Khan... (hidung shah rukh khan kecik ke ha??) **errrr... jgn nak byk komen. Syukur Allah bagi hidung yg sempurna - Dia ambik balik hidung tu baru padan muka** - ok! ok!... syukur Alhamdulillah... atas kurniaan hidung yg sempurna ni...




Bibir mulut berulas nipis... errrr... tak reti lah nok komen pasal diri sendiri...


Ok... dah settle... bolehlah bercuti dgn aman tanpa bebanan hutang yg tertinggal... dan saya tak nak tag sape2 lah...

ok... jumpa lagi bila saya balik nanti...
have a nice day

Sekadar catatan...

I had a quiet conversation with a dear old friend yesterday. It was about a challenge (read: opportunity) that I declined to take. He send me an e-mail couple of days a go. Questioning me. He thought I had the capability. I told him honestly the reason why. I simply was not interested in the challenge presented to me. And I am the one who know what is best for me.... yes?

He came to see me again yesterday. Tried to convince me to change my mind. I did not and I was not about to change my mind. He left and I dropped him an e-mail. Thanking him for trusting me. He replied and said that I’ve been in my comfort zone too long. Am I? Maybe I am.

For those who knew me would know that I never decline a challenge nor pass an opportunity to develop my self. But why is it difference this time? Maybe because I know my pool too well. Maybe because I know the other fishes too well. I knew that the big fishes does not always look after the smaller fishes. And there are sharks. And vampire fishes. And jelly fishes that are transparant but ready to electrocute you.

Don’t get me wrong, I was not afraid of them. I have never been and I never will. But to be able to swim, I need to have clear mind. And peace at heart. Something that I doubt that I will keep on having, had I welcomed the challenge. Although that would mean I will get more planktons but planktons come with a price. A price that I am not willing to pay.

Am I at fault to choose not to take it?



hmmmm... apa-apalah...